I do look pretty; I know I do but I cannot summon the courageto leave my safe haven.With a strong resolve I march over to the coat hanger and put on m...raincoat. It feels like a shield against the world when I decide to leavemy sanctuary.I confront the door leading out of my domain and into the big wideyonder. The door is too intimidating and I am unsure what lies without.Looking in the mirror for reassurance and courage I convince myself I ampretty but my make-up is not perfect. My DNA is. First, my wife Linda had gone along. The trip was to Little Rock, and I had told her about this fabulous steak place where the smallest steak on the menu was 2 pounds. Oh yes, and the hors d’oeuvre menu was short – tamales. Definitely not a low fat place. I had eaten there once before, and we were going to try It out the next evening.We were staying at a nice motel on the outskirts of town. Our room had a balcony that overlooked the river. The place also had a great pool, and Linda and I. “I normally drive, but my car broke down and can’t afford to stay overnight in the city.” By this time the bus had rolled through the tunnel and was traveling through North Jersey.“Yeah, I can understand that. Well I ride the bus all the time, five days a week. It’s a little inconvenient but no parking hassles and no break downs.”“Man I can hear that. It was kind of strange, after I got through with my business walked around Times Sq for a while to see what had changed, and wonder if I. With a son and husband and one on the way ... Well, I just wish,” his friend said.“The time you spend is precious to all of us. I wanted to tell you we’ve run an ad here and in Palmyra searching for a nanny. None of us can spend all our time up here and we don’t have an option for where they can live and get the attention they need.”“I wish I could apply,” Marian said. Devon bolted and went into the room to greet his playmates.“I thought that I’d let you know that we’re searching in case you.