.. red and blue flashers in the rear-view, Job interviewnerves, a room of, 'normal' people, 'looking' at... you. And thenwhatever was left of my balls...got kicked into my throat by someone thatknew how to kick. I stood there for... I don't really know how long. Maybe twenty minutes.Picked up my bag and keys and drove the forty minutes it took at 5 inthe morning. 3.Yes, I knew where the key was, but I didn't, couldn't, just make a call.I suppose it was like one of those scenes from a crappy. Of course, the girl was blindfolded as well as having the ballcock in her mouth. Howard liked to use a blend of sensory deprivation in all his subjects both male and female because it helped to speed up the process and made his job a lot easier.Igor approached Emily from behind and paused before he reached out and roughly yanked her panties down to the back of her knees baring her hindquarters to full view of all guards and watching officers. She had no blemishes on her pale white skin and Igor. Eventually he stopped and I gasped for breath in long shuddering breaths as I fought to gain control over my crying. “So, have we learned our lesson Bobbi?” he asked, almost tenderly.“Yes” I gaspedSMACK! “Yes What? Bobbi?”“Yes Gunther?”SMACK!SMACK!SMACK! “That’s Yes Sir, got it Bobbi?”“Yes Sir!” I wailed“Are you my little bitch now Bobbi?” he asked, self satisfaction evident in his voice“Yes Sir” SMACK! “Yes Sir What!?!”“Yes Sir I’m your little bitch now!’ I cried hating myself for saying it. . like all addictions, they have their... drawbacks. I had gone too hard tonite, I wanted Suede too much, whatever the reason, I was now too numb to go another day. It happens with the toothbrush sometimes, it feels so good, the adrenaline rush, the pleasure, the guys in my head... I had to have more! Too late, I'm numb. When you're numb, your "happy hole" has to rest for a day. Who wants rest? I wanted them, I will want one of them tomorrow night, but I can't cause I'm numb. So, what do I do?.