"Yea I'm okay missed you though!" I said as I closed my door. "Me too. Come one let's go home, and chill out." said Kelly as she started the car. The...bus stop wasn't far from her house, but Kelly was always a little lazy. She never liked walking unless she had to. We got to her house and walked inside; her mum was home. "Hey Helen, thanks for having me," I said as we walked into the kitchen. I loved Kelly's mum. She was always nice to me. "Hey Rosie how are you?" said Helen as she flipped. Mene dhire dhire ahista ahista uski jang par apna haath gumane laga. woh kuch nahi bol rahi thi par uski sanse bahot bahot hi tez ho rahi thi me wo mehsus kar raha tha. woh khadi ho gai or meri or dekhne lagi . me to dar gaya ki achanak usko kya hua or woh kuch kahe bina andar apne room me chali gai . me dar gaya tha . kahin woh andar jakar apne parents ko ya kisi or ko phon kar ke bula na le kyonki unke ghar ka lanline phon andar tha . tabhi 2 min ke baad usne mujko bulaya . me dhire dhire. Not to mention the talks we had started having. My brothers told me they thought her and my best friend were fooling around so I asked her. At first she sternly denied it, then it slipped out. After 7 months in a desert you get horny and you get nasty. "I wouldn't blame either of you. I would have if I ever got the chance" I froze when i said it but her reply nearly bowled me over. " what if you do have a chance?" from then on out we spent the last weeks of my tour saying things that no brother. Yet there is a strange sense of relief, an inner peace, that comes over you as surrender your pretensions to manhood and lie there, prostrate, limp and pathetic, in women’s stockings and high heels, whilst another man pumps your arse, emptying his men into your bowels.As devastating and soul-destroying as it may be, with surrender and defeat comes the relief that the pretence is over. You no longer have try to be something you are not, and never reall were.It is now almost 12 years since my.