"Pin him down, tie him up, and make him beg for more." Metaphorically." Yeah. Sure."Abbey planted her legs on Jed's lap. "When we met, when we fell in...love, could you have imagined that we would be where we are today?" Where are we? What are we? Who are you?"She laughed as she pushed on his chest.He lay down and pulled her on top of him in a bundle of limbs. "We were a pair of grad school nerds traipsing through Europe. My long term plans vaguely involved a plane ride back across the pond. I. I found the foreman and said we had to get something from our shop and would be right back. We went back to the shop and picked up some tape measures and a couple of micrometers to check the steel's thickness.When we returned the owner was there with the foreman. He was equally put off that we doubted their work. I pointed out the bad paint, several sloppy welds of the diamond plate, and the inferior handles and locks on the compartments. Dan was taking measurements of the thickness of the. All of these are merely dreams that can never be and if I hold onto them then I will never know peace. We will never be together and I know that, with every bit of my being, I know it but God, how do you let it all go? Something so strong and sure? How do you implore your heart of hearts to see reason and allow yourself to heal? How do you tell it to speak with your head and actually listen? To understand that this pain, this appalling heartache, could and will happen again if I continue to do. I put them all on and showed him. He also had changed his clothes by that time and was in a t-shirt and shorts. He looked at me appreciatively and said, “Let’s do it.”I said okay and we made our way to the bedroom. He stood behind me, wrapped his hands around my tummy, turned me around and said, "Let’s do it here." Then it occurred to me - it was not a hotel and even if we went outside, no-one was going to see us. He held back of my neck with his left hand and my side and stomach with his right.