They were so soft, smooth and tender, suddenly she grabbed my hand over her breasts and tried to remove it but I kept on pressing her breasts. I knew ...hat if I had any chance for fucking this girl without her raising an alarm, I had to take her to point of no return. So I moved my hand down between her legs over the cunt and started kind of massaging her cunt. Again she grabbed my hand, all this time I had my lips locked over hers so that she doesn’t scream. I kept massaging her cunt trying to. One night she suggested that we try other people and when I agreed she said she wanted to go first and I agreed. We decided to try her luck at a local hotel bar and we went on a Thursday night. She at the bar and it was not long before a man sat beside her and got her a drink and soon they went to his room. I followed and waited outside while they had sex, after we went home and fucked several times. The guy was a civil servant from Ottawa working in Fredericton during the week and she saw him. I'd stick my fucking COCK into your PUSSY and FUCK YOU, you little SLUT! I've ALWAYS wanted to DO YOU!' I couldn't believe what I heard myself saying...or what Angela would say next...'AGHHH....Alex....I would LOVE it...I used to think bad thoughts…I'd dream of you FUCKING me, growing up! Just taking me and making me do things to you...God, I've fantasized about you FUCKING me against my will!! Forcing me...Nnnnnn...My legs are spread so wide for you RIGHT NOW, Alex! You want to FUCK your. ’ She wipes her tears and smiles faintly. ‘Well just for my record keeping I am keeping track of all of my partners. I purchased a brand new journal and a new pen. This season in my in life is titled: The fuck of the thirties.’ It consists of dates, names, descriptions and a score from 1 to 10 for each of my new partners. ‘Chayne that is very interesting, what gave you the idea to record these events?’ Well Dr. B I am so disconnected from myself when I am allowing these men to use me sexually.