I almost had an orgasm watching her squirm, and hearing those moans. I placed two fingers in her hot pink pussy and began to move my hand in and out o... her soaking wet cunt. As I finger fucked her I saw out of the corner of my eye, her vibrating back massager sitting on her dresser. I pulled my fingers out and licked them clean. I leaned over and grabbed the massager and turned it on then back off again. She was looking me in the eye, but at this point she couldn't really speak, she was. Yes, that’s the key. Concentrate on the music. The squid started expanding and contracting its tentacles along with enlarging and shrinking its head. It was done in a fluid movement surging from top to bottom with various unpredictable speeds. This must be the swim massage. It was just short of painful in how far it expanded and pushed at the head only to stretch her further down at the tentacles with a sudden flick–while she was still feeling the relief of her tunnel relaxing from the head. So finally alone, I could consider doing what I thought about manytimes. My needs were simple, and with the accumulated time, I couldretire with enough of a pension to cover my expenses. So the next stepwas to make the changes I wanted. The first steps were easy. Shaving,really shaving, everywhere; allowing my hair to grow longer; taking careof my nails and experimenting more with makeup and clothes; all of thiswas easy to do and fun. I liked the new way I looked, so I began todiet and swim. She's overwhelmed,by the violence done to her, her gender change - my God! I can'timagine what she's going through there - and the sudden loss of hersupport system, her family, her friends." "And so she's withdrawing because-" -because her unconscious mind has initiated a protective depressiveresponse so that her lack of emotional control doesn't destroy her. Theprotection afforded by this is short lived, if her conscious mind can'tcome to terms with her situation." Pia paused, her eyes.