He just tried harder and I almost lost my grip on the gun and the next thing I knew he was laying on the floor bleeding from his stomach."So sorry man... but I did warn you." I sat down next to him taking his hand in mine as he choked on his own blood. "You've got red on you," he said as he spat blood everywhere before going completely silent.Years of friendship had just come to a final bloody end and it was a bummer but he deserved it.I looked over a Julia who was staring at her dead son with a. I got up Friday and received a message off Shelley from late last night asking what time i was coming over and jokingly said she may come and watch me, i replied i would be there about eleven when it has warmed up.I arrived just before eleven parked up and there was no one about, i walked to my old stomping ground made sure again no one was about and removed my shirt, i walked a bit further and picked up the courage to remove my shorts, i was now walking naked through the fields and the old. But what about you? What're you wearing to the dance?" I caught the sock.It seemed an innocent enough question, but there was a silence. I flipped the sock up again."I'm not going."The sock bounced off my nose as I turned toward her. "What?" I'm not going." Her matter-of-fact tone hid volumes."Oh!" I didn't know what to say to that. "I'm sorry." It's complicated," she explained unhelpfully.There it was again, the verbal parry deflecting me. Lying on my side now, watching her, I didn't say. We connected with each other through something even greater. Our stroking, kissing, licking, penetration, pace, and variations in position helped us explore each other in new ways beyond the physical. We honored each other and honored the creative Universe or God that exists in all of us – in all things. I often think when I have a really hard orgasm that I have truly become One with that Force.”I said, “Well that aims me towards the answer, but I still wonder ‘How’ you did what you did?”Sheila.