-- "The first reason - which isn't something you need to worry about now - is that you don't yet have a good understanding of what love is. You've sai... you love me a couple of times, which I treat as a very nice compliment, but you don't really understand what that means. You're naturally a very giving person, but when it comes to boys your defensiveness about your body gets in the way of your expressing your natural generosity of spirit. Love is, of course, a totally giving emotion. Until you. “I could just fuck myself with this first and hope Lauren doesn’t wake up from my moans.” Slowly she begins rubbing the dildo up and down her slit, getting her juices flowing. Finally, when her pussy is just wet enough she rams the dildo into her own pussy and lets out a loud scream instead of the moan she was aiming for. “Holy shit, this is huge!” She thought. “At least it will be nice and wet for Lauren.” After a while of pumping away with the dildo, Sydney. He's not being a complete wimp about this.Of course, he's not getting abuse, either. They're reserving all that for me. He's just the opening act, I'm the headliner. I went up there after he went in, followed by his friends. Facing the jackals all by myself.I suppose helping me undress is a "reasonable request". But is ripping my fucking shirt right off? Or snapping my bra, hard, into my back before you take it off, is that a reasonable request? Or making all the cow noises when you take my. I also talked to them about my mixed feelings for the upcoming new school experience. I was still thrilled to be starting high school, but seeing the way the social caste system seemed to work left me feeling uneasy.I talked to the ants a lot about how much I missed my dad. By then he had been overseas for close to nine months, and he wasn't due home until late August. Mom and I had been doing well enough without him but it just wasn't the same without him around.Mostly I talked to the ants.