In the same chapter, Noble also summarizes Theodore Reik's 1941 "studyof masochism," which attributes the masochist's pleasure in pain to amessianic c...mplex. Basically, Noble says, Reik argues that "Reik'sChristian masochist is both the victim and the victimizer and thus seekspunishment from within. . . . There is something of the publicspectacle--indeed, one might even argue something of the exhibitionist--that is constitutive of the pleasurable punishments for Reik'smasochist" (63).Reik's. “Nisha. You are the only one who can save my relationship with Richa.” He said, his finger circling around my navel as he spoke. I kept looking at his face, breathing heavily, my body filling up with lust. “Wh-what can I do Raj?” I asked in my most innocent tone. My attention completely diverted towards Raj’s finger on my navel. “Nisha, if you fulfill my needs and desires, I will never bother Richa about sex till she’s ready.” he said as his hand was now feeling the smoothness of my stomach and. I loved being fucked by Paul the other day and I wanted him inside of me again…and again, and again. I was a true sissy now, craving to be fucked by my masculine lover. It made me extremely horny when I thought about it and I wanted to be satisfied.About 7 or 8 miles from my home is an adult book store. It sits along the highway and there are always a few smattering of cars surrounding the building. A tall tell sign of what is going on inside. It sells the normal array of adult merchandise;. Birgit was Lutheran, and only nominally so, and didn’t come to church. I wished she had, but I’d never seen her here and so I’d never have expected it.Melanie saw me and walked over.She stepped close to me and said very quietly “I’m really happy for you and Birgit. I’m glad it worked out. She’s so lucky to have you.” And then she quickly walked away.Larry was the only other one who heard. He grabbed my arm, and whispered, “You did! I knew it!”Sigh. Busted. But I could count on Larry not to say.