It was what saved me. What made me go on." He smiles at me, really smiles. I had never seen that before."You ... have changed, more than looks." I say...softly but, am still suspicious, I can't help it. My life was turned into a living hell because I dared to care about this man."I am what I should have been had I taken a different path. It is allowed." Vashe sounds so sad and yet ... I wander what he is really trying to do."And what of me?" I had to ask."You are as you have always been, the. ’ He looked at the card he had picked up. ‘I’ll email you an estimate of what I think I might need. I’m not far from you and I could put up some temporary tunnels to bring things on if that would help – so long as you don’t mind helping me look after them. I’m away on business about one week in four.’ He looked at me again. I couldn’t pin down why, but I realised Jill was right. I was the focus of his attention and it didn’t seem entirely about business. His look was disconcertingly direct. I. I am not able to express my feelings, how happy I was at that moment. After some time that kid started playing with the nearby villagers’ kids and I and Suchi were sitting under a tree and looking at all the pics.I wasn’t able to control and said, “You are such an amazing woman, you are beautiful, I have never met someone so beautiful as you.” And I told her everything I felt about her.She said, “Stop, stop, you are making me shy. Who praises so much, you are mad.” And we both laughed.I said,. His hands play along my skin, making me moan. I slide my hands under his shirt as he begins to lay me back onto the couch, placing my hands on the strong muscles of his stomach. I lay back against the blankets as he sets me down, then takes his shirt by the bottom hem and pulls it over his head. In the light from the lamp beside the couch, I can see all the scars on his body from when he was on past missions. Bullet wounds, one in one shoulder, one on his side. A stab wound in his belly. A long.