.. for a year or so and I let things slip away from me really badly... especially after my miscarriage."I let other men flatter me, tell me I was stil... beautiful, desirable, smart... whatever... you name and Jimmie Roberts and Raphael Porter took care of what I needed emotionally for a time. You stopped Jimmie cold before I could make a worse mistake than just listening to him. I just wish you could have with Rafe too."I've already told you... I didn't hear you when you were telling me all. We exchanged some chit chat, awkwardly enough at first, about where her parents were and when they would be back. Eventually, we kind of got into a rhythm of conversation and she seemed to chillout. Soon, she was flirting with me. She was flicking long black hair and smiling and looking down at her legs. Her T-shirt was revealing her panties and I was looking as much as I could at this area. She knew and liked it. Her nipples were hard and every now and again she would rub her breast with her. And she seen me thru the window running and she asked me why "isaid cuase i went to go check up on jr and she said ok and then i remebered i forgot to close her cabinet next to her bed were the dildo was at my heart felt like it just sank like a mini heart attack .then i made a excuse and told my aunt i was going to go take a shower in her restroom inside her room but then she said "ohh i was going to take a shower and saod use the other one i was like okay thenn i quicky ran to the restroom. I'm coming to Cincinnati."That was that; she hung up. She said it so matter-of-factly that it was almost scary.The next day, I had my second panic attack. I'm just thankful that I wasn't driving. Well, I'm also thankful that I was alone, too. I was in the men's room at the trucking company. Even though I knew what it was, it was still terrifying. Our dispatcher noticed that there was something wrong right away, and despite my assurances that I was all right, he sent me home.Of course, Mary knew.