And I really liked that. After losing my cherry, I went to the arcade on a daily basis. After that day, I knew what I really liked and wanted most . .....cock. I wasn't attracted to boys my age. I had some boys in the neighborhood show me their cocks, but they were not like the ones I saw and had in the arcade. I did end up having sex with a lot of the boys in my neighborhood, though, but I preferred the men that went to the arcade. After about six months of going to the arcade everday and. I am laying there about to cum when I feel him jerking. I look down and his red penis is hangin out and he is humping the air. I think he is thinking what I am. LOL. I lay back again and let him continue to lick me. This goes on for another minute then he just stops. I go to get up and growls! Ok its cool. I will just lay here. Then he puts his two front feet up on the bed and begins to hump the air again. Oh my, he is trying to fuck me. I started to have second thoughts.I started to. We drove down the road, made small chitchat. occasionally I rub my crotch outside my pants as we talked ...she stared out the window unaware & Unattracted to me a balding overweight middle-aged man. But I couldn't stop looking at her as we traveled down the road... she was in Capri -pants and a USA basketball jersey tank top... So very sexy. It was a long drive to other side of town. The girl was beautiful but poor I knew I could take advantage of her. I asked her if she ever thought about. It would be cruel, but at least I would have known. Known enough to try and put it behind me and move on with my life. But not knowing meant that I couldn't. My imagination would fill in the blanks, and there were an awful lot of blanks. I spent hours driving around the streets of our town, searching for a glimpse of her. I sat in my car, two hundred yards from her parents house for hours on end. The possibility that she was there or would call on them was the hope that kept me there. All to.