"All your life, you are trying to be someone, but you can't because youare a shaman!" He said, looking at my eyes, and my smile died.*** My upbringing... the conflictOne of my earliest childhood memories was playing outside with thegirls. I liked to play with girls. Some of the girls were older than Iwas, and at one point, they started to talk about pregnancy and havinga baby. I was too small to understand, but I sensed that it wassomething important."Mom, what it's like to have a baby?" I asked. “Surprise!” Shouted everyone at the top of their voice as she opened the door.Annie, Shobha, the Twins, Bade Sahab, Vedant, Mishraji, Uncle Ji, Menaka, and Raj Bhaiya – All wished Savita grinning from teeth to teeth. These were the most important people to Savita. Savita had slept with more than half of them.But she was happy that Ashok had planned all this for her. This was what Ashok was doing with his phone all time they were shopping. He had arranged everything for her.Savita personally. "I looked at the cat he held again then gasped loudly, it wasn't one of the soft ones that had been used on us to such effect before, no, this was a real one made of hard leather. Through my shock I heard Jane whisper 'Jesus!' and Helen's low 'Oh yes!'; in almost disbelief I watched as my son stood directly in front of Helen and experimentally flicked the cat, the sound of the tails cutting the air was frightening yet I felt excitement welling up in me. He flicked his wrist again and the tails. I really need this job. Our rent went up and neither my parents nor my housemate's can afford to give us more money." Marcie wondered briefly why she opened up so easily."Ever done anything like this? I used to swim in school so being nearly naked in public doesn't scare me, but being among a group of people fully dressed, staring at me is another thing altogether." I'm almost terrified." Marcie admitted. "I went to an all-girl Catholic High School. This bikini would have gotten me spanked and.