She appeared so innocent, carefree, I wanted to give her what she needed, to go far beyond her expectations, and to please her as only an experienced ...an could. With my full length now buried deep inside of her I carefully laid her back down to lay flat on her stomach, my body following hers, not parting from one another. She took on more of my weight as I settled down against her, my fingers combing through her hair and pulling it back to give clear access to her face and neck. I lowered my. Grabbing something to drink we all sat down at the table and I ask the girls if they had seen Doug yet this morning. Ann told me he had left early because he had to help his dad move some wood. With a stern look at Ann I said I hope you didn't do anything you'd regret last night. Being on the subject I asked them how they learned so much about sex being that I could count the guys they had been with on one hand. They both laughed at me and said just because they were younger than me didn't stop. I still went with my signature knit toboggan. It was warm and hid my wild hair. Since she was a hair stylist, Lucy was always on me about my hair.For breakfast I had the choice of a bran muffin or a bowl of bran cereal. I had fresh milk, so I went with the cereal. I had the bowl to be washed in the small sink. It was so small that the soup bowl, coffee cup, various smaller items made it appear to be running over. My next change to the trailer was going to be to replace the kitchen sink with one. The answer isno. I am helpless, I cant do anything I didn't do the first time around. I am utterly trapped saying and doing things just like before. I wonderhow many times I have been through this cycle? Can it ever really havebeen said to have a beginning, since it will not have an end, as far as Ican tell? My own life is become an endless loop, and I can never be free. I havetried so hard to do or say something, anything I didn't say before, andfailing. I literally cannot learn from my.