Bell and Ting were a little scared by my outburst and I tried to tellthem that everything was OK, that it was just too much drink. I thinkthey believe... me, and I gave them a generous tip. I just wanted to getaway and as I sobered up I began to feel shame at what I had done. Ileft as quickly as I could and found my way back to the hotel. I sat onthe edge of the bed with tears rolling down my face again as I began torealise what I had done. The alcohol was now bringing me down as italways does. "Yes, I am!" I said, surprising her a little by the look on her face."Wait in here, we'll call you in, in just a moment," she said as I saw Elle come in and give me a hug."Elle, it feels the same at 58 as it did when you were born. Dani wouldn't let them tell me if it was a boy or a girl. She insisted that I be surprised."Back when Mary was first pregnant, many things were different – There was no such thing as Lamaze - not gaining popularity until after 1960 - pictures of the baby from inside. We didn’t even have sex last night, which isn’t necessary every time I see her, but it is a change. Lauren seemed happy to just spoon me on the couch as we watched movies.As I sit down in my office chair, I have to squirm a bit to get comfortable. Lauren was right and I can still feel the slight aftereffects of her riding crop, which at the time was a sexy idea, but now the dull sting, mixed with my overactive mind, just adds on to my already growing anxiety.I’m about to head to the kitchen to. I just don’t think I should be following through with that thinking.”“You want to fuck me, don’t you?” Rin abruptly says.“I...” Ashe begins to say and then she closes her mouth and stops to think for a moment.The pause gives Rin the opportunity to jump in. “I don’t know if I can let you fuck me though.”Ashe’s expression changes so quickly that Rin has to concentrate not laughing. “Why do you mean? I didn’t say I wanted to,” Ashe says defensively. She even scouts up and away just a bit.“You.