" Oh my gosh. Yes!" I giggled to myself, thinking about how fun it would be, making fun of popular kids who have their only glory days in high school...."Let's do it. We'll even get some cheap dresses, okay?"It was decided, we were going to the annual Winter Formal. We even went to the mall after school that day to try on a bunch of outfits. We arrived at the mall right at 4:30pm and decided to go into the first dress shop we found, we both took some dresses off the racks and tried them on. After. It was a school brimming with adolescent fervor, a place where everyone walked the tightrope between civility and disorder. For Wilhelmina, this Darwinian proving ground was the perfect place to model her wares, and no one would dare to notice. It was a place where "Willie" could finally be presented in all her masculine glory. An everyday fixture in the weight-training room, she sought to prove herself in a never-ending competition to see who could do the most "reps." With imposing. He told me to bring them. I got in my car at 6:20 pm, I sat in the running car for a few minutes thinking about what I was about to do, nerves and butterflies were going through me but I was hard. He lived in a nice town on a nice side street, I pulled into the driveway, grabbed my bag and went to his front door. He answered he was taller than me, about 6 feet 3 inches, his hands were much bigger than mine and he had an accent, maybe Russian or Polish. He invited me in and told him to follow. I wanted to turn and reach out for this man. I wanted to throw my arms around him and keep him, but somehow I was frightened that the spell would be broken, that this weird anonymity was the one thing making it possible. I stood there, frozen, excited and exhausted. My mind slowly came back to a strange sort of reality, having stood there on the brink of having sex with a complete stranger, I now had to go upstairs to and behave normally with my husband of 30 years. I also realized that I was.