."What cologne does he wear? What color are his eyes?" She pressed."No perfume. None. Smells male. Green. Maybe he's 55," Sheila replied.Classic Kelly...came on again, "Fifty-five? My God. What does he do? When will you see him? Do you love him? He's not married is he?"Why am I feeling so defensive with Kelly? Something is wrong. I can't answer like I always have. Why can't I just answer her questions? "I don't know what he does — he writes proposals or something. I didn't ask. I don't think he's. I looked over the selection of toys that was on a table. There were assortments of dildos, I choose the one called the Natural, a 12 inch cock with balls, it was perfect, I also had mom’s little pink finger vibrator that would do very nicely as well. I throw on a bath robe and shoved my new friend in my pocket. When I entire the bathroom Aunt Dana had her back to the door and did not see me come into the bathroom. She was enjoying a very hot steamy shower. I must have made a noise, because I. ”Then Jennifer turned to me and said, “You’ve proven to me that even while you’re miserable, you wouldn’t betray me. I’ve thought about this a lot, and because I love you and I trust your love for me, I think that if having sex with my sister makes you happy again, it will be okay since it’s her and not someone I don’t know or care about.”“I can’t believe it,” Lee muttered as she sat down on the couch.Normally I would have refused, if simply for the fact I had no real feelings for Lee besides. Us girls are dummies.End Diary EntryDiary Entry: January 2009Happy New Year!So I talked to Ryan last night about the scene this weekend and hecontinues to tell me he?s all for it. He said he?s OK with me doing itbecause in the end I?m coming home to him. I asked him if he loved meand he held me close and said he did. He thinks this will be fun andhot and exciting so I should just enjoy it.I got emails from Dan with a little bit of information on the guys thatare going to be fucking me. .