Spirits were both high and consumed. I came out of the toilet in a little corridor behind the rehearsal room to find Carrie leaning against the wall ...moking.“You’re not supposed to smoke. “I’m not supposed to fuck the leading lady but I’m going to.”“Really?” She nodded. “Well, give me a drag on that fag then.” She did and then we kissed, and I discovered for the first time in my life what a tongue stud (hitherto unnoticed and so probably recently re-inserted) feels when it is part of an. The whole experience was unimaginable. The black man was (twice her size) and was humping her like a wild man. She laid there, drunk and almost u*********s. Her legs were spread and her body was limp. He flooded her womb with his fertile sperm. The good thing was that she didn’t get pregnant. Admittedly, as he was slamming his cock into my wife, I had some feelings of jealousy, but my sexual desires overcame that.Gracie enjoyed it, so she said, but in the same sentence said that she would be. "And what?" Have you found anyone to replace me?" Oh, what's this?" Shawna hurried forward a little, taking Caerys' other arm in hers. Seeing them all occupied with the conversation, Marcus let himself trail back a little, uncertain how to fit in."Nothing," Hope muttered unconvincingly."Yeah, right!" No, really. It's just an old joke," Caerys said and tried to laugh it off at first, but then she caught something in the look that passed between Hope and Shawna. "Oh, you." Yes, her!" Hope. I was detached from the world around me, safely within the fortress of my mind where the chaos couldn’t touch me.Over the past several months, I had been unwillingly plunged into the darkness. I struggled against it, fighting for color to come back to my life. Sex had been a trigger, Mavis, Kendra, and Susan had been catalysts, my loving sister and girlfriend had struggled through the darkness with me. And as a result, my art had taken a turn into new light, texture, and expression.Through all.