I was slowly realizing, that playing the boyfriend was a dead end, had always been a dead end, and if I ever wanted something like long-term happiness...I'd have to be honest with them and myself. I'd have to learn how to be myself, which was a weird thought. I wonder if I could practice somehow. Maybe go out to bars and see what it felt like to 'be myself', I guess.Ugh.Not long after I found out about masturbation, and then the internet, I discovered stories describing BDSM relationships, and it. Again Kieren says 'So what do you want to do?', Ramsay replies with 'Just take off your clothes then I'll tell you'. Kieren does what he says and by the time Kieren is naked Ramsay has a huge boner. Ramsays dick is about 18cm with an off white sortof tan shaft and a red purply large knob. His dick pokes out of a thick brown forrest of pubes and sit above a modest tight scrotum revealing his testacles and lots of brown pubes hanging from them. Kieren is much palerin complexion with lighter. She completely ignored me. She sat with that irritated, where the hell is he, look on her face so it was only a matter of time before one of these guys at the bar tried to hit on her.I started to get up but she gave me a look and made a motion with her hand that said 'Sit,' as though I was a dog. Okay, I thought, she's playing games. I'm sitting here in a cock cage and she's over there with no knickers on. Great. How did I get myself into this?A text appeared on my phone."Call you in a minute.. Mu dekhe kemiti achi. Raju sange sange trouser khuli dela. Ohh ta banda ta pura hard hei thia hei thila. Mu hatare piti piti halauthili aau ta banda ta tike bi bend naahei semiti thia heithila.Momi pura hard naa. Aji genhiba. Dekhiba kemiti lagiba. Hau tu genhubu. Mu dekhibi. Raju hata badhei mo sadhi ku khuli baku lagila. Mu bi khuli pakeili. Pura nangala hei maa pua khatare basithilu. Raju anthei basithila ta thia banda ku di hatare aunci aaunci mu khelu thili aau raju mo doodha ku di hatare.