.I thought you’d be. . . .”I stuttered and mumbled nervously as I tried to apologize.He looked up at me. The embarrassment poured into his face an... I could see the humiliation in his eyes. I felt so bad for him. I instinctively took a step toward him to comfort him.“It’s OK. . .” I told him. As I stepped closer, Brian pulled back a little, forcing his gaze to the floor, unable to look at me.I took a deep breath. “It’s no big deal Brian.” I blurted out, trying to sound lighthearted and. It looked like water, and it smelled of nothing the way water did. Scared to ingest anything from the man, but parched, Julie swallowed. Her second gulp stung her throat. She coughed. Her hands trembled, almost dropping the glass, but the man clasped it around the base, steadying it for her."Slowly," the man said. Julie paused and coughed again. She tilted the glass up once more, this time taking smaller sips. She could hear the muted, humming pops of her swallowing."Good girl," the man. As James drove home later, Lucy's turkey drawing was on the seat next to him. It was hardly a Picasso—it was far more valuable. To James, the affection showed him by the small child vindicated his innocence of all of what others had accused him. He cemented the conversation at the table into his memory. What he said was true; he enjoyed exercising his math skills with his able student, and he liked Raymond and his family. He hadn't told it all, though, because he knew that they would never. They bought him around again he was babbling no more no more they cauterized his wounds with a spray which stung but the blood flow stopped. He looked at them pleading they cut the cord off his cock The older nurse took the scalpel and cut a line arond the base of his scrotum and cock at first he did not understand and then when she reached for the tweezers he began to scream as soon as she started to pull away the skin he passed out she pulled it all away and left it dangling on the end of his.