I lovedthe idea that ladies always went to the toilet together; there was theritual of refreshing makeup.Even though I only needed to pass water I wen... to a stall so I could sitdown just like a girl. I felt like I was in the wrong room as I soidentified as a girl even though I wore male outer clothing.Back home Mommy accompanied me to my room where she helped me get ready forbed. Mommy began to undress me."My darling Chrissy, I just love to get you ready for bed, I want to do somuch for you,. I practice what I preach. The most important thing is thatwe love each other and can't wait to be married. I don't mind that he'svery attracted to boys. It doesn't matter at all. Dolly admits the errorof his ways and is 100% faithful to me now. Regardless of his genderpreference." Is that the streetwalker's fur coat?" Joseph shouted out from thecrowd."How would you know that Joseph? Careful you don't incriminateyourself," Phyllis chuckled at the question from one of the ringleadersof Daniel's. I showered, stretched, shaved the hair above my pubic bone, touched up my chin and scrubbed at my skin with one of mum's flowery exfoliants until I was pink. Wrapped in a towel in the steam of the bathroom I wiped the mirror and saw myself quickly in the glass before the condensation clouded over.How could Maxie want me? Near naked in the bathroom I felt wrong, damaged. Ghost bruises flared in my mind where He had touched me. Maxie was so ... pure, refreshing. He was better than me, that was. And if he wasn’t a man yet she was going to make him one. “Oh! Um...just one scoop of...vanilla please?” as she smiled at him. He just looked at her and went over to the freezer where all the ice cream was. As he leaned in to get a single scoop of the ice cream for her she leaned over to check out his butt. Just as she leaned over the counter he started his trip from the freezer to her and all she could do was quickly get up and hope he didn’t notice that she was checking him out. “Here you go,.