It won't be long now. I welcome it. My cocktail of current drugs do nothing but blunt the pain.But it gives me peace, and time to remember.I can still...recall vividly the first night we welcomed CeCe back into our bed. Slow and tentative, exploring, touching the remembered with new appreciation. It wasn't the powerful couplings of twenty somethings, but mature love with all its' ramifications. Thanks to the pill Amy got me I made a respectable showing.Habit of a lifetime, I was up first and made. They squeezed me tighter, both telling me how much they loved me and would miss me but it was obvious they needed home and the childhood safety of it. The room door came open as Alicia, Tawny, and Zachary came in. I hushed my girls and told them to go pack as I asked. “What’s wrong, where’s dad”, Zachary started. “Sit down”, I asked them. “No, where’s dad”? I sternly looked at Zachary, “All three of you sit down now”. “Yes Uncle”, Alicia answered. They were used to commands.. I spanked her ass cheeks harder. I fucked her and spanked her ass.I took out my dick and put her on the sofa in the bedroom. She spread opened her pussy and I pushed my dick deep into her pussy. I was on top of her as her legs were in the air. I started to fuck her pussy faster and deeper. My strokes were fast and deep. I spit on her mouth as I was near her face.She swallowed it and licked the saliva around her lips. I pulled out my dick. I asked Shikha to raise her waist so that I could fuck. Cold water. The river was barely above freezing, and would be fatally cold to anyone else, but the strong current felt wonderful to me, especially flowing against the most intimate of places.With a contented sigh I closed my eyes and breathed in deeply, the scents from the forest carried a thousand little stories to my nose. A nearby fox’s den hid a mother and her kits. A couple deer fed downstream, keeping a wary eye on me. When I was human, I felt helpless with my eyes closed, but I didn’t.