What makes it worse for him is that I was in the program at the time. The government is very protective of its program participants, and takes a dim v...ew of school officials acting out against them unfairly. Should this incident progress to a civil suit, it has the potential to put a real hardship on this school as well as be financially crippling to Mr. Bauer, and in spite of his animosity towards me, I don't want to see that happen to him. Up until the events which occurred yesterday morning,. I think the touch of gray in my full head of brown hair had something to do with my feeling uneasy about letting go. I wasn’t ready to be a granddad.We got home and Shellie put her new wardrobe away as Linda started dinner. When Shellie was done she joined her friend in the kitchen. I watched from the living room as they teased each other and played grab ass while making it.My date was a dinner one so they only made enough for themselves. They opened a bottle of wine then joined me on the couch. It's a band from Heritage if you can believe that. You ever heard of Heritage? It's a little cow town up in northern Cali somewhere that makes Bakersfield look like friggin Beverly Hills from what I'm told. Its where they grow most of our tomatoes and our rice and where having a good time means shutting down the still for the night and going over to the grange hall."Jake's eyes popped wide open and he sat up, startling Angie. "Holy shit," he said."What?" she asked, looking around."Shhh," he. You’re not like them, Jim. Could you…would you…” Unable to finish, she dropped her head. While I’d only met her, I understood why she couldn’t finish. I touched her chin and lifted her head to look into her eyes and told her, “Meagan, I can’t think of anything I’d like to do more than make love to you. But, I need to know if you’re really sure you want to. I’d never forgive myself if we did and you’d suffer from guilt afterwards.” “I’m sure Jim. I want to…very badly. I need you.” I kissed her,.