That night I went to my mother by her bed and without her noticing I blew some of the powder in her face. I first she was shocked but her eyes quickly...glazed over. I couldn't believe it. I figured what do I have to lose so I made a suggestion to see what would happen. I told her when she woke up the pain from my father's death would start to become more bearable and she would no longer spend all her time in her room. I then told her to sleep.The next morning I saw her up and preparing breakfast. Me: (just controlling what I was actually going to ask). Its just 2 or 3 hrs. Come back soon.I knew she was in love with me. She then hugged me tight. I enjoyed it very very much. I was stunned..Me: You are breaking the protocols. Now go on.She waved me bye many times and rode off.I went upstairs and thanked my luck. The most desirable women of whole school . Was in love with me. I didn’t even care to think of consequences. All that mattered to me was my Rani.She called to my mobile just after. Giovanni had insinuated himself into this process at every point. It almost felt like his plan from the very beginning. He’d set the chessboard, placed the pieces and moved them all. Very deep waters.I saw what he’d done, now. He’d planted the insinuation in my mind that he was going to fuck my ass. He’d teased me to the point of distraction, building up my arousal, making me crave an orgasm. But if I were to start fucking him now, I’d have to penetrate my ass on his thumb. It was entirely up. "It’s just not right. God did NOT say it is right for a woman to lay with another woman. Or a man to lay with another man. Sex is between a man and woman. And it should always be so." I heard over and over from them. So I shut my mouth and never told anyone. Not even my past boyfriends. I laughed as they always had fantasies of me being with another girl, and yet, I could not tell them my little secret. That in fact, I would die at the chance to be with a girl. Spread her milky white thighs.