” She could have just used the term “blowjob,” but she seemed to enjoy describing the details. I was also amused that she was pretending that I ...ouldn’t be able to define cunnilingus.I couldn’t think of how to respond, but she had something for me. “You are probably wondering how I know about this.” Yes, now I am wondering. “She gossips with her friends, and they have told me for her own good.” A bigger question was how a guy from The Bronx who drove for a car service got to be with this Betsy. I don't know why, I just know that it is an inner need that never goes away. In fact, with each passing year it gets stronger. Once, when we were in a pretty mellow mood, Brenda and I started talking about each other's sexual likes and dislikes and Brenda asked me if I had any fantasies and I told her what mine were. She didn't seem shocked to hear it, she just said, "Interesting. I've never thought about having sex with another man. Who knows? Maybe some day we will try it." And now she has. Maybe a little less now.''I'm four eleven in sports socks, and I'm a 32A, and I wish I was taller and had a bit more up there, and that my face didn't make me look like a dumb pixie, and that I didn't need glasses, and that when I grow my hair I didn't look like I had a tumbleweed on my head.' Her eyes were closed. The atmosphere between us was different somehow, and I fumbled for words.'Lily, please stay the way you are. I'd kinda like to have met you before... ' She snorted.'Before, huh? I. Fag?" she said."That's not exactly the PC way of saying these days," I said."Fag, queer, homo, they all mean the same thing, Jeff ... take me home!" NO! We're staying right here, Janie. Your reaction to everything is run away, DON'T! I found some communications dad had with a gentleman from Springfield Ohio. They say all the things two men in love say to each. I'm not against homosexuality at its base. However, this has affected our family and not in a good way."I was embracing her and keeping.