........," I typed and sent. I had deliberately left the end with a series of dots. I was suddenly feeling very playful and excited about the evening ...o come and wanted Danni to fill those dots with whatever she wanted to imagine. I was already imagining lots myself! Another beep. "Can't wait. See you xxx" came Danni's reply. I smiled at the response, hoping she was doing the same after receiving my texts. Despite the fact I had to go to work, my mind was already focussed on planning for the. There are layers and layers of control that we exercise on ourselves and our thoughts and our perceptions of reality, and when you abandon them all, slowly, one at a time with a steady and balanced effort over a long enough time to allow you to keep this focus going and get really, really deep – you feel like there’s a lot of shit out there, just out of reach. The more you can let go, the more you can tune in, and the more you tune in, the more you think you might possibly be going insane. On a. The ladies should have been home. Our Amy was six months old by then. Fred’s Julian was three months. Both women nursed and they hated pumping. Our temporary nanny, a luxury but a necessary one in this first year while we were still sorting out who would do what in the house, was reading in the nursery.The babies were fast asleep. Little angels, everyone calls them, but every parent knows how demanding the little angels, even the so-called “easy” ones, are when they’re awake. These two were. I was literally compelled to make sure that we got together and had sex. Without Colette, it would have happened. I would never have felt those special vibes that attracted me to him. It was like I knew he would be good. And tonight, she will be giving him the key that will make such a wonderful sexual future for our college days.As the train started, she looked out the window seeing the dark sides of the tunnel moving by with a light flashing every now and again. She looked at her reflection.