But the wine and the wetness in my panties was doing the thinking now. Once inside the bedroom and before I could turn around he was pulling my top of.... He then kissed me on the neck as he cupped both of my small tits through my bra. I reached back and felt his hard cock through his shorts and then turned around and began pulling them down. Oh my that young cock looked so good and so hard standing out like it did. I pulled my shorts and panties down as I got down on my knees to give it a good. At first it felt weird. Then I felt a jabbing pain. When I started to move he stopped me, telling me to relax in a very hypnotic voice. "You need this as much as I need to give it to you." His face was close to mine when suddenly he kissed my neck and then worked his way up to my lips. For the first time, I had a strong desire to kiss another guy. So I did. Sensuously, and with deep tongue. He returned in kind, his tongue dancing in my mouth with mine. Then without any other warning, Nelson. The voices in my head went mostly silent as I recalled snatches of memory. I looked up and noticed Sean looking in Al's direction, but he didn't say anything. After a while, Ursus thought at me, shit, you actually believe that garbage. How did your ego get so crushed? Look, you have a bit of chub, but it's not an outrageous amount, and you could lose most of it if you moved around more. You aren't in the least ugly. It's almost like you've never looked in a mirror. Truth is, you are quite a bit. My first heart attack.I lost the reds. Oranges and yellows stayed, but I lost the Italian glass bead red ... the one they had to make with gold. That one was gone entirely ... the other glass reds slowly faded away ... so slowly that I didn't notice until I closed my eyes one night and all I saw was blue ... spectacular shades of blue ... but blue. The blues lasted a long time.I was 35 when I died.The heart attack was pretty severe. I fell off a 24 four foot ladder. When I was aware again, I.