The little bag that Jess had given me was on the table. She looked atit with a question. "Jess gave it to me this afternoon and said that wewere to ...pen it when we were together.Victoria reached into the little bag and took out a small black box anda note. She opened the note. "Obviously it's from Jess. It says:'Thank you both for being in my life, I love you both very much, butequally. Both of you should enjoy this gift. Love Jess."The box contained two gold rings linked by a chain,. I opened my mouth and pushed outmy tongue. I deliberately licked at the lipstick on my lips to try andmask the fetid taste of the guard's penis. I then started to lick allaround his knob that was half exposed out of the wrinkled foreskin.I bought up my hand with the intention of masturbating the guard whileI slobbered on his glans with my tongue and lips so he would ejaculateover my body rather than in my mouth. The guard would have nothing ofit and slapped my hand away; he again grabbed my. All Daddy did was look at me and told me to go get a good bath and get myself absolutely cleaned up and washed everywhere, and I knew what that meant Patti and it never was good when I had to do that.As I walked away and went into the tub room where already Mom had filled the tub with water and I got out of my dirty overalls and shirt, and got in the tub and began scrubbing myself just as Daddy had ordered me to do.I scrubbed myself down there really good wondering just what terrible thing I. I didn't really know if it would make any difference, but I had to be even more honest. You see, I hadn't told Johan that I had wondered about actually doing these wicked things.So they weren't 'just' fantasies. I mean, it's true, I imagined them while I fucked myself. But lately, instead of just accepting them as fantasies and forgetting about them, I've wondered, God, imagine actually doing that here, or, imagine if it was them! When I get thoughts like that, my nipples get hard and my skin.