When Jerry got a great hand, he showed it to me and asked if he could bet sex with me for the pot. I said yes, and he lost. I pictured you winning the...hand and carrying me upstairs to our bedroom and making love to me." "Well, you weren't far off, were you?" "No." "You do realize that we are all going to fuck you, don't you?" "Yes!" "I hope you're doing something about birth control." Pam looked to me and waited. I don't know why, but I froze. After several seconds, Pam said, "It's all right;. How am I going to do it again? I am tired of starting over. I feel lost. One way or another, everybody I care about leaves my life. I'm afraid that you will one day, too. I just want to grow old in one place," I responded, wiping tears from my eyes.I turned around, trying not to let him see me crying. It made me feel weak and I didn't want him to see me like that. It just made me feel even smaller."That's not gonna happen, baby! I love you more than that. You're special to me. You treat me so. She just had to — just had to be the innocent, anonymous child she never was.The pink room was already filled with people, many of whom she knew. But as soon as she entered, she felt a difference. No one came up to her for a hug and a kiss. No one cried out her name in welcome, waving and running to share the latest gossip. They stood with their backs to her at one corner of the great room. Something must be going on. She pushed her slight body through the throng.Something was going on,. He would twixt the Chairman tonight, and would contact the media later today to let them know that I would make myself available for a media conference in Cinnity two days from now at ten in the morning. We would have to rent a conference room before we left Cinnity. Finally, everyone but my new bodyguards had left. Carl had arranged for a police hover bus to take us all to the weapons school. When everyone was ready, we boarded the bus and left for the school.Sereine and my bodyguards were.