Like a normal person,’ I added so he would understand he wasn’t allowed to drive more than 40mph. ‘OK, I’ll drive like a normal person.’ W...en I’d finished dressing, I smiled and said, ‘Let’s go.’ Jordan kept his hand on my back more for his comfort than mine, I knew. But I needed its warmth, I needed his comfort, I needed his strength. When we got to the elevator Jordan pressed the call button and while we waited, Hawke and Holly came out of his office. I took one look at Holly and started. I handed him a Stella, thought it might loosen him up a bit, he didn't waste any time on the subject what he was there for, he asked a lot of questions about Big Lad, I asked him if he had the hot for him, he replied he'd always did and always got him to work on the same team as him, I said Big Lad said your married, just an excuse to keep the other men off my trail, you know how it is he said a gay man working in the construction industry, I'm sure your not the only ones I replied. He. I don’t think you ought to try to quench a big thirst with gin and tonic,” she said, and then winked. I stood there, dumfounded. Gin and tonic??? And did she just wink, or is my imagination playing tricks on me? Although my mind was racing, I retained enough presence to simply say, “Thank you.” I watched her back as she walked to the kitchen door, and went inside. What is going on here? I wondered. Is what I think is going to happen, going to happen? Damn! I finished putting the hose and vacuum. Sure, we got hot and heavy a few times and there’d been times when she’d had this look in her eye ... But we always backed off. We always went to sleep in separate beds even though it was getting harder and harder to do that.We’d agreed right at the start that sex wasn’t going to be a part of our relationship. We weren’t boyfriend and girlfriend, and we weren’t going to have sex. I needed to prove to myself I was capable of a relationship that didn’t just involve sex and she ... Well, that last.