I was appalled “Lavinia! what is the meaning of this?” “Mama says it is necessary to rouse elderly gentlemen,” she declared.“Your mother, ho..., she has not been here for a good many years,” I insisted.“She writes me letters sometimes,” she explained, “Mellors delivers them.”“On the couch please my dear and spread your legs that I may examine you,” Dr Legge requested as he thrust his hand down his breeches to re arrange his manhood.She sat down lofting her skirts, I saw her shaved belly and felt. Khaiir dosto ab Dolly aunty ½ ghantay ki buttering k baad kaafi naram ho chuki theen, aur mae unke qareeb sofa me baith gaya, I said :ab to hum friends hain na??? She said: Dekho kisi ko pata chal gaya to kya sochay ga?? Main ne kaha jo kuch ho raha hai wo akele me ho raha hai kisi ko nahi pata chalay ga jub tak khud nahi batayen ge, phir main un k qareeb chala gaya aur unki taraf apna haath barhaya. Unho ne haath nahi milaya bus smile de di or kehne lagin “theek hai”. Maine unka haath pakar. Stole things from me. Things I didn't know you could take." I made my voice small, half wanting for Maxie not to hear, "He raped me." I took a hard shuddering breath, I had never said it out loud before. Never even said it in my own head, and now that fact was out there, flitting to Maxie's ears like a butterfly on wings of poison. "Lucky for me I was shit at suicide and good at healing."I paused, but the only sound from the wall was Maxie's uneven breathing, "So I'm sorry I was awful to you.. Remembering how we'd met, and fallen in love, thinking about the first time we'd made love.I woke up the next morning feeling a little the worse for wear. After I staggered to the bathroom and swallowed a few painkillers, I stood under the shower, trying to look ahead, but only seeing what had been, and what had been ripped apart by Donna's action. No matter how I tried to find any silver lining, all I could see was Donna sucking on Gil's cock.By the end of the morning, I knew I had to get out.