The only reason your still alive is Jake is protecting you. You need to get down on you knees and beg his forgiveness and do what ever it takes to mak... him trust and love you again! Grace says how am I going to do that after what I have done. Her mother asks do you have any love for him at all, Grace says of course I do, I never stopped loving him I just listened to the wrong person wanted to be a player in the latest fad and totally lost my sense of self and before I knew it I ruined myself. She asked, "How long did I sleep? It is very hot today. I need to change my kamiz it is almost wet. She then asked me to take down her suitcase and bring out a new kamiz for her. But the key could not be found anywhere. She must have forgotten them while leaving in hurry. It was a big break for me. Now when I think about the incident it still puzzles me at what would have happen (or not happen) if the keys were not lost. Sangita was sweating so much but she had no way to change.She finally. I could see his back muscles rippling through his shirt and his ass -- that ass -- no words are available to describe it. He must have women falling at his feet. I felt another twinge of desire as I watched him walk away.I went into the kitchen for another beer after Billy was out of sight. I felt myself breathing deeply, thinking about what I had just saw. He's your best friend's son and he's half your age! What the hell are you thinking? I thought.The door to the basement was open and I heard. But the rest of the world just went away. I was even surprised to find Pey sleeping next to me. I’m so glad I’ve connected with my little sister. The old man was a stupid ass.If my own kids had behaved like I did when I’m meditating, I’d have told them to quit daydreaming and do something. I sort of remember that. I was supposed to go outside and play when I was little. Go mow the lawn. Go ride your bicycle. Go do something, don’t just sit there daydreaming. I guess I could protest that I was.