"I changed my mind." You know this complicates things." No it doesn't. Not really."We were talking softly. We had to, seeing as how the Hendersons mig...t be lined up next door, ears cocked. The noises she'd given out hadn't sounded very pain-filled to me. Then again, Jenny hadn't interacted with Kat all that much, like you might have expected. The boys both had their heads buried in electronic devices. But Jenny had spent most of her time leaning against her father with her head on his chest and. Hannah grabbed hold of Liz's hands. "Oh, for heaven's sake," she said. "No we're not. It's not a sex thing," the look on Julia's face suggested to Liz that she didn't agree, "although it is quite sexy. And lesbians aren't just women whose men have gone out to work, you know." I think Cassie might be," Julia interrupted."Oh, be serious!" Hannah chided. "The point is Liz, this is just a sort of grown up game we play. We're sorry if we've upset you and, please, just forget about it. We want you to. This was back before the internet if I did have the web back then I quickly would have found that I was not alone. But as it was, I to this day think I have some inkling what it might be like to grow up gay and in the closet, so great was my sexual desire, trumped only by my need to keep my preference secret. What was my deep dark secret? I liked fat chicks.There was a woman in my dad's office that summer in who I took a strong interest in. Her name was Linda. She was a Hispanic woman, not. " Sorry," I said as I started to set the dinner table. "The bus wasrunning late because of the weather and the sidewalks are all icy." Its OK, your Uncle Mark is working over time so it will be just you andme," she smiled. "I'll finish setting the table and you go and get intosome warm clothes. You look chilled to the bone." I am, thank you Aunt Sharon," I smiled.I went into my room and kicked off my heels. God did that feel good. Itook off my short skirt and hung it in the closet before.