But I’m not going to be that guy, who services his straight friend. No, I promised myself when I came out to myself that sex was always going to be ...uid pro quo for me.” Jake didn’t entirely understand the welter of emotions in his chest as he listened to Elf’s speech. Guilt at having, however fleetingly, considered the prospect of using his friend for one-sided relief; anger at his friend for having jumped to that conclusion; confusion about his sudden, powerful desire. For when Elf had said I. How can you watch me do... do stuff with other men and not get jealous?"Tim was silent for a while. "I guess I do get jealous. I think that's part of the excitement. I can't explain it but I feel this excitement in the pit of my stomach. When I saw you with Steve and then those two guys last night, I was so excited. I felt something strange. It's almost pride, like I own you. I know that 'own' is the wrong word but it's like... like I'm just letting the men have a taste of you but afterward,. There's nothing really at stake, so make a random guess if you want."Lily suddenly said, "In hand," pointing to my other hand.Pat agreed, "Yes. That's where it is." I was hoping you'd choose different locations, otherwise how can I tell who is closest. I'll get you to guess again, because it's not in that hand. In fact, it's not anywhere to do with me. Not in either hand, not under one of my legs, not in my mouth, or anything like that. Try guessing again?"Now they were flummoxed. They were so. Tucking it behind my ear, then placing a gentle kiss on my cheek. The lift reached the first story, I passed by the lobby so quickly that I never noticed the heavy downpour. ‘Shit!’ I silently cursed, remembering that I didn’t have my umbrella with me. I ran fast to the nearest bus stop, using my bag to cover me. It wasn’t much of a help, I was soaking wet before I can even reach the stop. Glanced up to the electrical board above me, I missed the 6:35 bus, the next bus will arrive in 20.