It had been condemned but the owners were in court fighting it and I had no idea why. It was a dump but located in prime real estate. They should have...razed it and sold that land. I later found out that they qualified to house section eights and the government tit oozed golden milk. On the ground floor was a hard core alky bar offering 4 for 1 drinks and the place was filled from noon when they opened until 1 am when they closed. My neighbors didn’t even bother to close their doors since their. Finals were over and I loaded the car to head home. I had never felt so positive about how I had done. I had also never been so well prepared. I turned on the radio before heading to Jeff’s dorm. Counting Crows was reminding me of Sam and I couldn’t help but smile. ‘Don’t it always seem to go that you don’t know what you’ve got ’till it’s gone? They paved paradise, put up a parking lot.’ Was this an omen? Was paradise the girl I had been, always in control, getting whatever I set my mind to? Or. I turn over to try and take Palto's mouth in mine but he laughs and pulls away.Not this time sweet heart. He eyes look me over hungrily but turns sad as he reaches my face. I missed you every day after you were gone. I'll be here if you need me. His image wavers and he disappears.Oh Palto, why now. The universe only knows.Nosis. A gentle hand is touching my shoulder. The rest of the body is far out of my reach. Time for your watch. Diana reminds me. I groan. He was only a dream. It was so real.. " But we'd know, Paul. We'd know the truth and I don't think either of us could live with that." I don't think either of us can live with the way things are now. You need a man and I need a woman. We have each other. We love each other. Are we going to keep walking around each other? Are we going to keep ignoring our needs when we can easily satisfy them? We're both adults. We can make that decision. We can choose to live and love as we see fit." But it's not right, Paul. It's just not right,".