I can take care of my own sexual needs.” I don't want to, but will if that is all I have.She lays her head back on my chest, tears falling again.“...hat are we going to do?” she asks sobbing.“We know this place we are in isn’t working – for either of us,” I say quietly.I hold her on my lap for what seems like hours. We are both afraid to let go - afraid we won't get this moment back. While rocking her, massaging her back, she finally quiets. My mind has been spinning, searching the depths of my. It’s Erin. I know what you’re doing.”She drops the pants on the floor and calls “Erin, what are you up to?” and walks to the door. She unlocks it, opens it, and walks back to the telescope. Erin comes in wearing a tight T-shirt and jeans. “Come in. I’m waiting for Brittany.” Then Brittany walks into the room, too. “I’m here, Vanessa.”Vanessa turns quickly and sees Brittany. Brittany has another business outfit on like the other days. The skirt’s a little sexier — a bit tighter and higher up the. This had started out as a way to get pregnant as quickly and as assuredly as possible but look where that had gotten her? She was willing to cross the line a bit in the sake of her seemingly noble cause of creating a loving family, but now she realised where her lust had overtaken her and how far back she’d crossed that line. It made her blanch. The line was now an invisible dot, miles back in the distance and her actions were beyond any semblance of woman she thought she was or what she was. That night I cried till I fell asleep, and in the morning I didn't want to wake from my bed. I was feeling sad and sick at the same time. Mom brought me breakfast but I didn't want to eat, I was sinking into depression, and was just crying and sobbing all the time.Gill passed by and looking me in my bed with my watery eyes embraced me and said, "Oh Bobbie, I'm sorry. I tried to warn you that Joel wasn't trustable, but you were so in love with him that I thought that maybe this time he would.