" For the next couple of weeks we hardly spoke but gave each other little smiles whenever we came upon each other. Then one night Tracy came staggeri...g into the house. It was obviously that she had been drinking. "Where's Mom?" "She's over at Jan's house. I think it's a scrap-booking party or something." "Ted and I broke up. I caught him making out with Judy. I need to get fucked. Fuck me." I told her, "Tracy, your upset and drunk and your my step-daughter. I can't do that. Why. I had been a swimmer in high school-- not a great one, but good enough that my coach had told me to shave off all my body hair so I would have as little resistance as possible in the water. I had worked up a good tan, which set off nicely against my little white Speedo bathing suit. I had covered my body with oil and now, glistening, I had hoped this afternoon to find a cute girl by the pool. The only girls there seemed to ignore me, so I tried to lose myself in a novel. That's when I heard a. In the 69 position, they start going at it. It was so fucking hot to watch. Then I notice the one guy is sucking the other guys balls. First time I have ever witnessed that. What a fucking turn on. I'm just watching these guys go at it. Two guys on the bed doing 69. Another guy was standing, getting his cock sucked. Then I thought about it, and had to tell them, I got there attention, "guys, this is the first time I've been in a room with 3 cocks being sucked and I wasn't the one doing the. He wanted me to say a little something about The Program after my reading, too, so I'd made some notes about that, too.The cross bearer came down the aisle, leading the choir, the cantor and pastor Bill, and the service began.It was the usual liturgy, beginning with the brief order of confession and forgiveness. As I dutifully recited the words, and then Pastor Bill forgave us our sins, I couldn't help wondering how God himself felt about what I'd done over the past week. I guess I'll just have.