I could only hear part of their conversation through the closed windows so I got down on my hands and knees and eased open one window so I could eaves...rop.I saw Jack scoot his chair closer to Sarah's and he put his hand on her knee as he talked. Sarah was wearing a yellow sundress that buttoned up the front. I had always like that dress because it was not only beautiful but if she opened the top a couple of buttons you could glimpse her breasts and because of the way it fit it gave the. I laid on my back, spread my legs wide, and gripped the bristle end of the brush with both hands while furiously and forcibly invaded myself with it.I started to pound myself with it, impaling my body with it. Yes! Christ yes. Please, please do me harder!I wanted this to hurt. Because I knew that soon the pain and pleasure would reach an intersection point. Those sensations would come together, and take me over the edge and take me away. This is what I wanted. This was my dream and fantasy at. "You are a girl. You'll always think of yourself as a girl," he said. "And the hormone therapy will make your body into that of a woman." Then why didn't you cut it off?" she asked. "Like you said you could have." We don't really know if you would be better off. Lola, I want you to understand you aren't less than your friends, you are more. You can be a girl and you can also be a little bit like a boy if you want. This is going to seem confusing for a while. What I want you to realize is that. Some are very big, bigger than anything I ever see. Others are small, and some of those can move very fast. But they can only go straight or turn slow; if they come for me they will not be hard to escape.I still think of them as monsters because that is what I learn, but they are not monsters at all. They are like a thing that floats at the top of the water, and behind many of them have strange parts that turn very fast and stir the water to make the thing go. I think these parts are dangerous,.