It would be inhumanly cruel. You can't do it, darling."She looked up at me imploringly. Her eyes, despite the tears that were starting to form, had a ...trange new intensity about them and they glinted in a way that was almost metallic, as if cobalt had reinvented itself as a shade of green instead of blue. It struck me that despite all I had been through with Fran I had never properly looked at her eyes until this moment. And as I stared at her it seemed to me that she alone really understood. She said that she would take me at 17:30Did she say any other thing?Yes..You have said to her that you like my legs.Yes, that's right. I desire them.No! You are too old.Sweetie, I will only kiss and you will caress.No..I had understood that I wouldn't be able to fuck her foot.I had to find a way to fuck her.Sweetie, don't understand me wrong.But, I can give you money.You will do only with your foot.How is that? with my foot??Yes..I can teach you.You are strange.Yes, I know.Meanwhile I was. Panicking, I tried to fish my mobile out of my jeans. Managing to retrieve the small device, it slipped out of my hand landing in the gap between the centre console and the driver’s seat. Searching for it as I mumbled to Helen, “Sorry, I am not used to all this messenger and Facebook.” Struggling to pull it back up with two fingers, not to drop it. Once the thing was in my hand, I pressed the power button. The screen remained black. Looking up at Helen, not knowing what to say.The angry,. “So I kind of hid them away. I was always in the baggy jumpers and big coats. I wore bras too small to try and lock them down ... And the boys weren’t interested in me, because, you know – ma face is nothing to get excited by ... So I spent a lot of time alone, thinking about sex, like, but nay getting’ anything – not even a kiss...” She takes another drag of the cigarette, building up the nerve to confess her secrets.“We had a dog at home ... And I used to kiss him ... Let him kiss me ... Lick.