But what if it did work? Would it be scarier to live in the mystery ofnot knowing the forces at work, or to actually stare them in the face?***It had ...urned out to be a pretty good day. Even if we couldn't get outof the lease, we had a plan of attack, and I had an interview coming up.That new game had turned out to be pretty good, too.All of my optimism faded away when I tried to sleep on the couch. Afterthe first hour of lying there I tried reading a book. As the next twohours passed I got. When she was younger all she thought about was sex and how great it would feel. As she grew she started having darker fantasies and didnt know how to control them. Every night she would masturbate while thinking about men using her, forcing her to do things for their pleasure. But now, just thinking about being used isnt enough. She didnt know if she could really go through with finding a man and letting him do things to her but deep down she really knew this needed to happen. She decided to go. .." I don't care. For a hundred dollars a day, I'll have anal sex morning, noon, and night. He can even be the ugliest man in America. I just need a job that pays money on a regular basis."Dave said, "All of your correspondence used your real name. What porn name would you like to use?" I don't know." We've got an Amber and a Bambi. Uh ... ABC ... something that starts with C ... Uh, how about Cat?" Great." Okay," Dave said scribbling her porn name on the cover of the folder."Is this when you. ." He stood, supporting himself with one strong hand on his desk. "Now if you will be good enough to let me get some work done."Andy got up and headed for the door. "Thanks so much Mr. Foster, I'll tell Rudy."As soon as the door closed behind the young man, Old Foster left his desk and began hobbling back and forth, thinking. After a few moments, he glanced out the window, still lost in thought. Well, by God. There was really only one way to make sure the hormone shots were really doing the.