He could tell by how she reacted, even though he still didn't know how she communicated it. Then his respect for her went up even more.She didn't even...try to take him out. He knew she couldn't; it would be almost impossible for her to make that shot. What impressed him was that she instinctively knew it too. She didn't even try. She gave him a tiny, almost unseen salute. He returned it, grinning to himself. He had to meet these people. And she wasn't even on the immediate assault team! He was. I did catch an infection once. Don’t remember if it was syphilis or something, but summer came immediately after and I went to NY on vacation and got it treated. Ever since I’ve been safer.”I laughed, “Yeah, because bareback sex is totally safe sex.”“You’re actually the first guy I’ve done bareback with since summer, and that’s because the only guy you’ve fucked is Saahil.”I still wasn’t convinced but I didn’t reply. After a long bout of silence, I tentatively asked, “Since you’ve fucked a lot. Then Jen confessed she had just ended a relationship a few weeks ago with her girlfriend and it had been some time since she had sex with a guy. I breathed a sigh of relief and tried being cool by not overreacting and not saying a word. Jen then asked if we could go very slow. Jen go out of bed, closed the shades all the way and turned off the living room lights. Her bedroom was completely dark except for her clock by the bed. Jen turned the clock away and removed her clothes. She moved in slow. Still, it feels wrong to just let her get away with all that." Has she gotten away with it? Has it cost her anything at all?"I was still looking uneasy."So am I powerless? How can I just let stuff happen to me and feel like a, man?"She gave me a very warm smile."My macho guy." Karen checked her watch. "So, how much time do you have before you have to make this decision?"I laughed. "Point taken." By the way, are you still with her? Is there anything going on to change the state of your marriage.