" It's more than that," Chloe cut me off. "Four years ago, when I found that magazine, I knew I had to make a decision. Either let you go and be miser...ble, or I could continue to make you happy in every way possible, allowing both of us to have satisfied lives. I loved you too much to let you go, and it was easy decision to make. I just needed time to become your ideal woman and hope no one would snatch you from me. I was going to offer myself to you, but after the last couple of days, I wasn't. "She smiled. "Come on. Try. Let me know what it's like for you, so I can make it better."I sighed deeply, thinking. I let my eyes glance around, Ronnie's eyes being too distracting while she looked at me. I said, "Well, there are so many external sensations. Too many, I can't get even get into all that --"Ronnie said softly, "No, not the externals, I can guess about that. I mean, inside. Tell me."I smiled and said, "Well, no, I'd have to sort all that out. We could be here for days."She said,. "I'm not reassured. My stomach hurts so much I can hardly move. I started to lie down with the intention of rolling myself into a little ball and crying my eyes out. But he isn't through with me yet.He growled, "What the hell is wrong with you?! I know you were trained better than that. I saw the movie. I know Reggie taught you what to do after someone fucks you."I sighed. But even that hurt. I struggled to turn onto my side and worked my way down on the bed until my mouth was close to his. ’ ‘W…w… what?’ I stammered. ‘I talked to Becky. You and she have discussed a great deal over the years, so she knew all about your past and relationships.’ ‘How did you know where to contact her?’ ‘Mum had all the information in the detective’s report. She gave it to me.’ ‘That’s a bit deceitful.’ ‘Oh no, Jack. When a woman wants a man, she will do anything to get him. It’s not deceitful, it’s women’s wiles. Anyway, Becky was quite happy to talk about you.’ ‘Yeah, I bet.’ ‘Jack. She is very.