Even though the matter cost me a bullfrog, I wanted to be a police officer ever since.I visited that fabled spot at least once a week for the next six...years. I don't know why. Each time the chaos returned, the shouts, the sounds, the faces of the men, the terrible gunshots one after the other. For some reason the gunshots penetrated me most of all. Guns were a way of life in our rural setting, but for me, they were put aside. I just didn't want to hear them, and reconciling that with my desire. Helenwas new to all this, having only been in America for three weeks. True, theunderground in her native London was no picture painting, but in comparison tothis, it was a dream. She still had no car of her own, so Helen had to rely onthe subway system to get to and from work, hence here presence there at thistime of night. Thegangs, laughing and shouting in the distance, made her more uncomfortable, andshe wished her train would hurry up and arrive. Thevoices drew closer, and the gang. DebWith Diana’s help I got all my ducks in a row. Today I had the bed and all of Paul’s clothes hauled away. I talked to the guy at the funeral home. When I told him that my husband was killed by a jealous husband and I really didn’t want to spend much on the cheating bastard, he didn’t push for a nice casket or a big ceremony. The whole thing would cost about $2000.He said the body was being cremated today and he would have the remains for me at the funeral. The funeral will be Saturday and. "He's here and I've switched the loudspeaker on so go on." Tina and I are engaged."There was a short silence as that was taken in."Christopher darling, that's wonderful news. It was quite clear that there was something more than friendship particularly on your part that weekend. Is she with you now?" Yes." May I have a word?" Be careful what you say. We're on loudspeaker too." Hush, child." Yes, mother."Tina got the giggles."He has to be reminded of his place from time to time, dear," said.