I thought that was soooo cool!”When she stopped giggling, Marcie calmly asked Laura, “What about the neighbors? I mean, can’t they see into the ...ackyard?”“Hmmm, I hadn’t thought about that. I suppose they could---I suppose they have---oh my god!”“What?” Marcie asked, her curiosity overpowering her sense of decorum. “What?”“They—they might have seen me...”“Might have seen you what? For fuck’s sake ... what?”“Shiting on Teddy Borowski!”“Oh---you didn’t!”“Oh, but I did. He double dared me and I. Nun sah ich das auf einmal mit ganz anderen Augen, und schaute mir auch die Männer genauer an. Ich ging noch in mehrere andere Saunen an diesem Abend, und jetzt wo ich darauf achtete fiel mir umso mehr auf, wieviele andere Männer mir mehr oder weniger offensichtlich auf den Schwanz schauten. In der Dampfsauna konnte ich sogar beobachten, wie sich fast gleich neben mir ein Mann dauernd an seinen Schwanz fasste, ihn mehr oder weniger offen masturbierte. Mir wurde bewußt, wie sehr mich das. It felt so good.” Her face flushed and her lip quivered. I patted her hand and put on my best sympathetic face. She opened her eyes again staring hard, “He fucked me in the ass, Bob.” Her mouth opened and she panted, “And I let him. I even enjoyed it.” She shook the nape of her shirt trying to cool herself. Something in the back of my head thought, 'So, the old Mary is still in there.'After a moment to let that sink in, I realized how excited I was. Now I'm having a hard time keeping my. I emerged from the water, patted myself dry and then, in the hallway, I heard voices. I made my way outside, palm of my hand cupping the grip of the pistol. There were more apartments stretching off down the hall. The door to one was open. As I approached, I could hear Marta’s voice and someone else’s too. I heard the tinkle of laughter, voices hushed, barely comprehensible over the eerie whisper of the engines. “Hi,” Marta exclaimed when she saw me, her eyes bright and alive. Her skin once.