It quickly became the norm to see these ‘supposed’ men in skirts, high heels, and other such feminine clothing. They were often slender with girli...h figures, wearing make-up and jewelry. I soon learned that whites and other men were put in their rightful place by the black race. I thought, “What did that mean exactly?” I visited a library to investigate. I found that this new black world order was accomplished through demoralizing exposure and aggression of the black man’s strength and. Because, despite being attracted to Rose, I still want to have a love affair and have sex with a man. I suppose I secretly still miss the urgent sex that I used to experience with Carlo. Anyway, on Friday, I had a chance to try out Rose's advice on Edmund: and it worked!Rose had suggested that I get Ed to help me pin my panties and bras on the washing line, and then to leave plenty of "girlie" things around my room. I always used to ensure that my room was really tidy when anyone came inside,. "But I didn't even think about that, really. Not until just now when youasked. I think I just wanted you to have it because you're such a goodfriend, and I seemed to be able to give it to you." And I've been pretty horrible, haven't I," said Emma eventually. "I don'tdeserve a friend like you," she blurted out.In a flash the two girls were in tears, embracing, then they were laughingand wiping their tears away."So, you like the car?" Mandy said finally."It's the most wonderful present I've ever. I don't understand how or why that is, but everyone is creating and projecting ki whenever they are intending to move their body, so it's obviously an intrinsic part of being human."[[It is NOT created "without effort and thought." It is created WITH both of those, but subconsciously, which means we're not consciously aware of it. But I was right about it being "an intrinsic part of being human", although I didn't know why at the time. In the larger sense, it's because ki is an intrinsic part.