I'm not going to continue on with us always fighting like this." I told you it isn't any of your business. What happened was before we started dating....I'm not going to tell you, so go ahead and do whatever you want to."I stood up, now as angry as she was. I hadn't thought she'd make the choice she'd just announced. I couldn't help it that I felt jealous. I believed that my jealousy would lessen once I knew who those other boys had been. Not knowing who they were, I had quite a list in my mind. He wasn't about to shut his eyes as long as that thing was there. So, I let him stay. Maybe the two of us will keep each other awake."Gareth?" Gaku asked, after an hour or so. "Can I ask you something?" Sure, what?" Would you repeat your poem to me again? I want to memorize it. Maybe someday I will understand how you wrote it and write some of my own."I chuckled, but this was exactly what I needed to stay awake. I recited it to the boy again, watching him, eyes closed trying to remember every. "Hey, Julio," she said with a snicker. "If you were one of these trannies,then you could get into women's prison and kill that son of a bitchMarisol."Julio thought about it for a second and replied, "Ha! Yeah, I could,couldn't I?" Yeah," Marisol confirmed, "but you don't have the body for it! I mean,don't get me wrong - you've got a great body, but you're all man. Youcould never be a girl."Julio and Maria continued watching the program without much furtherconversation. That night, as Julio lay. This in itself always allows my imagination, coupled with my fantasys to start going crazy with anticipation. It is kind of like the pages of a book that has all my fantasys, being flipped through at rather fast pace. He asked me not long ago several questions, (1) How many times over the course of our marriage (40) yrs have I been taken out into the woods tied and blind folded and been stripped naked and had my brains fucked out, I said oh, at least several hundred times. (2) How many times.