Unfortunately Jade refused to fool around in her grandma's bed so again we had to make do with the sofa, no major loss.Despite being tipsy she was sti...l slightly shy and I could tell she was unsure if she had made the right decision. Her reservations would soon go out the window.She turned the TV on to a music channel and we both Sat down, somewhat awkardly at first. I broke the ice by leaning over to zip down the back of her black dress. She playfully said "what are you doing"? I began to kiss. . Personally I think it is much more: first is a person with his / her interests, notions, hopes, emotions and feelings, secondly with his / her spirituality, not to mention that already for intellect not to mention .... Apparently to be happy most gays need a strong sex so they are happy .... Emmy everybody to live life according to their understanding, I do not impose my thinking on anyone, my hopes and feelings. Most people enter into a relationship with high expectations, life taught me not. Not that I was looking for any, no, I was here because I needed therapy.The wait was just another aggravation.Personally I didn’t think I needed any therapy or grief counseling but my dad thought otherwise.So he dumped me here half an hour ago and told me he would pick me up later, after the good doctor has made me feel all better.I would be so mad at him if I didn’t love him so much.He may have loved my mom but I sure as hell didn’t share that feeling, not in the end.Somehow she always had her. “Nothing except a battle lost can be half so melancholy as a battle won.”It is true — the aftermath of a battle won is a sad and terrible sight even for the victors. The battle field is littered with dead and dying men and horses, shattered and overturned artillery pieces, broken limbers and wagons, and everywhere the screams, cries and the heart rending sounds of men and horses in agony.We brought in some wounded, from directly in front of our position, but did not venture much farther on to.