"That was a mistake!" he said."I know! I meant to kick you!"Johnny shook his head then turned to his buddies. "Can you believe her?"Rachel slowly bent...down to pick up her car keys that had fallen to the ground."And just what do you think you're doing?" Johnny snapped."You've kissed me, okay! I'm going home." You still think we're not good enough for you! You bitch!" No." She said quickly backing down her anger as Johnny's rage grew. "I just have to go home. I ... uh ... have to work tomorrow.". I suddenly craved her badly. I wanted to lie with her, to bond as one as I drank from her. She noticed me and put her finger to her mouth, motioning for me to be silent. She got up, carried the baby to the nursery and gently lay it in its crib. She then came back to her bedroom and spoke to me for the first time. “Hello, sweetie. How was school today?” “It was okay,” I said. She could tell I wanted something, that I wasn’t interested in discussing my school day. My mom was always ready to give. I wiped them away with my dry hand and made up my mind about what I was going to do.After dialing Lee's number on my cell phone I began to have second thoughts. What kept me from hanging up before he answered was the realization that I needed him. It wasn't just for the sex I so desperately needed. It was more than that. I needed him to keep me safe from my own perverse, carnal desires. I had just masturbated while thinking about my brothers. What had been a fake confession to Father DeGrazia. Their meeting, their conversations, even the sex is based on lies and half truths, there could be no trust, and how long before she started to sink into the sort of jealousy she always despised, the kind she always demonstrated when she found herself in a relationship, the kind he was already demonstrating hints of. It would be hell, both of them always wondering if the other was with someone else when they weren’t together, especially given the unpredictability of both of their jobs, they’d.