If she only knew what thosefeelings were."Ahuh. Do you wanna talk now, sweetie?"I shook my head and sat down next to her on the sofa. Ilooked down at ...he rug for a couple of seconds beforesaying anything. This gave me the time to collect mythoughts. I was way to nervous to look at her eyes."Alex, look at me." Mom, please don't ask me to look at you right now.This is harder to do than you can ever know. Justpromise me that you'll let me finish what I have to say,no matter what." Of course I. The paint in her room was faded and cracked, the sheets were old, the sink and tub were rusty, and the hot water was temperamental at best. Still, it was luxurious compared to some of the hostels and dives that she had stayed in during the last few weeks.After a short shower using the last of her herbal shampoo—the dry desert air was hell on her hair—Lara dressed in the same shorts and tank top that had gone with her to hell—or was that the depths of Atlantis?—and back. The were worn in a few. “Well come in!” He said, enthusiastically. “Did you have a good trip to Europe?” I asked. “Oh…ummm what? He said, with his eyes still glued to my cleavage. “You went to Europe? Was it good?” “Oh yes yes…thank you!” “Good.” “So are going to tell me why you’re dressed as a nurse?” He asked. “It’s for a calendar I’m involved in, for next year. I was just trying it on.” “And you’re stuck?” “Yes, my suspenders are fast in the zip.” “Your…suspenders?” My neighbour had a far away look in his eyes when. As quickly as it started, our first kiss was over. He said nothing but just looked at me in shock and I was not sure what to do. We sat there in silence for only a minute but it felt as though an eternity had passed. Then he started to speak. I take it that you are gay too. He said very quietly with a small smile. I am I whispered back. Then with those words he leaned to me and kissed me and it was the greatest feeling of my life up to that point. I could feel the electricity that jumped.