Growing up i started seeing her as some kind of prize, an object of desire.They where good friends but he couldn't have her.When i was like 18 we talk...d quite open and he told me quite honest how much he liked her.When i was about 20 i just had my first little apartment and ran in to Otillia on the street, i told her about it and she said she'd like to see it, so i said yeah and took her home. When i showed her the terrace she looked down from the balcony to the garden below and i stood behind. That second night when we were sitting there I finally asked him if I could see his and he obliged. I had never seen another man’s penis before (outside of locker rooms and stuff) and was absolutely in awe. All I can remember is wanting to touch it and play with it. Never will forget that first moment and spending that night just mutually jacking off for hours. I was perfectly excited with where I was at but wanted to go further. I stayed a second night and the next morning ended up being a. ..I told her that I had them all on my hard drive we were going on and on and then I asked her hey why dont you come over and we could watch one she looked a little unsure but them she said only if you have this movie she loved... I didnt but said of course I do and she changed her mind, I turned the car around and we headed back to my place. We came into my apartment I went to go make us some tea and popcorn and I asked her if she wanted to put on something else to be comfortable and not to. The door was open to her unmade, vacant bed. She had also probably stayed out and never come home, fucking some new guy closer to dad's age than Ben's. It was a good thing neither were around, really. The less anyone knew about his late night carousing on school nights, the better. “Never. Drinking. Again…” he thought to himself. It was a promise he’d made several times before, and one he was unlikely to keep. The last several weeks he had been angry at the world. But lately he was just checked.